This is the heartbreaking picture of the mother who tried for a staggering 17 years to have a baby - and was a mum for just 32 days.
Tracie Wright and her husband Paul, 42, had never given up trying despite nearly two decades of trying desperately to be parents.
After seven years of trying naturally they underwent two courses of fertility treatment to try and help them, but the second course made Mrs Wright so ill that she ended up in hospital.
Tragedy: Tracie with baby Joshua who developed a rare condition of the bowel and died suddenly in his mother's arms after 32 days
They spent the best part of a decade trying naturally again and finally fell pregnant with baby Joshua, thinking that their 17 year battle was finally over.
But tragically at just 32 days old Joshua developed a rare condition of the bowel and died suddenly in his mother’s arms.
Mrs Wright, from Poole in Dorset, said: ‘We had waited 17 years to have Joshua, and every moment we had was so precious with him.
‘He had been born early but he had been doing so well and we had expected to take him home with us. But we ended up bringing him home in a coffin. It was absolutely devastating.’
Tracie and her husband Paul on their wedding day. The couple tried for 17 years to conceive
The couple started trying for a baby soon after they met in the autumn of 1993. Mrs Wright had been diagnosed with polycystic ovaries at the age of 15 and doctors told her it would be almost impossible for me to have children.
She said: ‘I was devastated, but I held on to a sliver of hope that one day I would be a mum. We knew there was a small chance I may fall pregnant naturally, but only a very tiny one. ‘
By the year 2000 Mrs Wright still hadn’t fallen pregnant. So they decided to try IVF treatment to see if that would help. But that course failed, and they decided to try another time.
But this time she became so ill from hyperstimulation of the ovaries that she ended up in hospital.
Mrs Wright said: ‘We decided that enough was enough and we weren’t going to risk my life by trying any more fertility drugs.
‘We decided to keep hoping that I would fall pregnant naturally, but we tried to tell ourselves to face up to the fact: that we would never be parents.
Then in 2006 Mrs Wright was at work as a nurse when she began to feel ill and tired. One of the doctors at work did some blood tests and they told her the most unbelievable news. She was pregnant.
She said: ‘I did several tests just to make sure as I didn’t believe it. I was actually pregnant after all these years of hoping, and Paul couldn’t believe it either.
‘I went for an early scan at eight weeks and saw the baby’s heartbeat and we were just so excited. Then when I was 11 weeks pregnant I suffered a miscarriage.
‘It was heartbreakingly, gut-wrenchingly awful. I thought that this was it. I was never going to have a baby. I thought it had been the one in a million chance for me to be a mum and I had lost it.’
Amazingly, five years later, Mrs Wright fell pregnant again in February last year. At her 20 week scan doctors told her she was expecting a baby boy.
Memory: Tracie and Paul are now fundraising for Poole Hospital in Dorset in memory of their son whose grave is pictured
Then just four weeks later she was diagnosed with kidney failure and her son Joshua was born at just 27 weeks, weighing a tiny 2Ib.
Mrs Wright said: ‘I lay in intensive care afterwards and they brought me pictures of him. I was so proud. Doctors told us that he had such a good chance.’
Joshua had to have an operation to close a valve in his heart at a couple of days old and after a few weeks the doctors told the couple that they would be able to take him home in a couple of months.
But then suddenly at 32 days old, Joshua fell ill and doctors diagnosed him with a rare condition that meant his bowel had died and it was quickly poisoning his body.
Mrs Wright said: ‘It all happened so quickly. He fought so hard for six hours, but then I held him in my arms as he slipped away.
‘After 17 years of waiting for our son we had lost him after such a short time. But even though I was a mum for only 32 days, Joshua will never be forgotten and every moment with him was so precious.’
The couple are now fundraising for Poole Hospital in Joshua’s memory.
Mrs Wright said: ‘The hospital was wonderful and now we want to help others in the future. And we are doing it in memory of Joshua. He brought us such joy - even though it was only for 32 days.’
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